I think I am going to try to post about a victory of the day every day...just trying to look for the positive.

Long but good chat with my mom today. It was unexpected, really I just called her to say hi and expected the usual chit chat before she and or my dad blew me off....instead we starting talking of all things about this crappy "family therapy" thing that the family did when I was in 7th grade or so where our whole family went like three times and everyone decided that all the problems in our family were my fault and I got to go for a year and how in my heart I don't believe that that was the message that was intended but it certainly was what I received.

Despite that it was a good talk - My mom suffered from crippling bouts of depression when I was growing up and she could totally understand that there are moments when I just want to celebrate not going back to bed and pulling the covers over my head. Sometimes that is my victory for the day. Yoday that was my victory but then this phone call happened and I was actually having a real conversation about feelings so I guess I get two victories on the scorecard.